Joshua's used to people taking his side. People who don't know better, who think he's someone he's not. People who don't have to see what he's done to his sisters, the most important people in his life. He hates it, every time. It's not your fault. You couldn't have known. What if you'd gone with? You'd be dead too.
Alastor doesn't do that.
Joshua takes the blame and this creature lets him. It doesn't feel good, no. But it feels necessary. Finally, there's someone who sees Joshua for what he is and not what people wish he was instead. Someone who sees the monster lurking underneath Josh's skin. Or at least, if he doesn't, he's willing to say he does to see what happens.
"I hurt other people too. Lots. The people I blamed for my sisters' deaths because I didn't want to blame myself. There's folks I don't even know dead--killed by the guy I worked for and I helped him do it. I'm a part of all this...terrible shit. That's got to be a sin."
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Alastor doesn't do that.
Joshua takes the blame and this creature lets him. It doesn't feel good, no. But it feels necessary. Finally, there's someone who sees Joshua for what he is and not what people wish he was instead. Someone who sees the monster lurking underneath Josh's skin. Or at least, if he doesn't, he's willing to say he does to see what happens.
"I hurt other people too. Lots. The people I blamed for my sisters' deaths because I didn't want to blame myself. There's folks I don't even know dead--killed by the guy I worked for and I helped him do it. I'm a part of all this...terrible shit. That's got to be a sin."