Joshua's needed to say these things aloud for so long but no one wanted to hear them. He doesn't feel free to have them out in the open now. But he does feel vindicated. As though he's finally sure of anything when it comes to his own messed up head.

And Alastor speaks the truths he's whispered to himself for so long.

He's no good at being good. No matter how hard he tries--and he does try, so very very hard--he's always going to be a monster. The Joshua Washington everyone wants him to be is just one more lie he made up to try and fit in. It's not who he is. It's never been him at all. The man who cheerfully whistled to himself as he chloroformed his sister's old flame and one of his best friends just to make her see him as the villain he already saw himself as...that's who he is.

The man who made his best friend choose between his life and the girl that was coming between their time together. The man who recorded their very real terror and suffering with intentions to put it online just to make them all hate him even a fraction of the amount he hated himself before he ended everything.

How could Joshua Washington ever think he could be anyone else? Why does he feel so afraid that Alastor sees him the way he's always felt when he looked into a mirror?

"...You're right."