"It's different for humans, I think, at least where I'm from. They only fight wars against other humans, because that's all they know that's out there to fight. We had demons, monsters, various types of eldritch beings that were not friendly to any other form of life...and we fought them like we were told to."

And maybe there were some they didn't have to fight, but...he can't go back and re-fight those battles in his head in the hopes of justifying them. He just can't. With the weight of millions of year of Past behind him, he'll drown if he doesn't live in the Present.

"I almost feel I should apologize," he says wryly when she mentions her husband. "I'm always worried I'll break some poor religious person's heart if they meet me here."