"That's true. We've talked about how we're getting older," Shelby replies with a soft laugh. She and Peter relate to each other in a new way now that they're in their mid-30's as opposed to being in their late 20's and both getting their big break. Nine years is a lot of growing up to do. "And I'm glad he told me. I never realized; actually I never thought about what happened to anyone other than me."
When she was in New York she had enough to worry about without thinking about anyone back home, and the rare times she did think about them she felt unworthy. So her myopia was one-part necessity and one-part self-loathing. Then when she came back to Indianapolis, she never wanted to look back. There was no reason to. Not until now, apparently.
"It's funny, it's like history repeating herself," she found herself saying to Piper. "He was my best friend for two years and now I don't want to be without him again either. But I have to make this choice that's going to define my entire life, and I've got to make it for me and not him or anybody else."
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When she was in New York she had enough to worry about without thinking about anyone back home, and the rare times she did think about them she felt unworthy. So her myopia was one-part necessity and one-part self-loathing. Then when she came back to Indianapolis, she never wanted to look back. There was no reason to. Not until now, apparently.
"It's funny, it's like history repeating herself," she found herself saying to Piper. "He was my best friend for two years and now I don't want to be without him again either. But I have to make this choice that's going to define my entire life, and I've got to make it for me and not him or anybody else."