"I just figured it couldn't be cheap to zip around the galaxy like that. It costs a fuckton of money just to launch a probe or a satellite back where I'm from."

Josh gives a shrug. He doesn't know how this whole space travel thing works, but he wouldn't have assumed it would be free. Almost nothing is.

"Well it was either that or..." Now, Josh has been known to blurt out socially inappropriate things without realizing it. It was just another symptom of his mental instability. But the part of him that hid that illness for years slaps him in the face now. You don't joke about your own plans for suicide, especially when it's not a joke. He sets his fork down on the plate.

"...or I don't know, really. I didn't have a whole lot of options."