"I don't...always know it's not real. So, I treat 'em like anyone else. I tend to assume most shit I see isn't real unless it proves it is. Touch. Things I can touch, things that hurt me. Physically. That I know is real. but I don't know half of my friends in the Nexus are real or just more hallucinations, waiting to turn from nice to nasty the minute I let my guard down."

Josh doesn't want to tell Adia what he does. How he screams at things to get away from him because they're not real. How he digs his nails into his hands until he breaks skin to see if they disappear or not. How sometimes even that doesn't help.

"So I just act like nothing is real."