Smile when your Heart is Breaking and even though your aching.

[delphicbooksandbaubles]

 Under a shady tree not far from some spot between one of the Cafe's and a announcement, or pin/cork board a black German Sheppard is nudging a pretty descent size cardboard/shipping like box into place. There's a quilt mostly covering the top, The smell of cheese crumpets and some other baked goods waft up from inside. There's a medium size dry erase board and marker hanging from a tack outside. With the question, 'What do you do when your feeling down?, In the Dumps or Melancholy? ' She checks to  make sure it's secure before hoping inside. An ear twitching or eye mite be visible now and again. But mostly she'd curled up feeling emotionally and physically drained, her head pillowed on a lovely blue scarf. She lovingly rubs her check against the soft cashmere. 

Which was on of the last gift's she'd gotten from a dear friend and heart brother and a well loved home made plush mouse, in a deerstalker and tweed outfit. She gently gums at an ear perhaps out of habit or thought between  Half heartedly trying to nibble on a snack, and laying a bit listless. Half hoping..she mind see a friendly face or two while the other half doubted anyone would be bothered or care to notice. A part of her trying to hold onto hope another part felt like she was running on fumes. A person could only take so much heartache let alone doing one's best and failing for the most part over and over again. 

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[chiron_survivor]

"It's easy to fall back on old patterns of behavior when you're afraid," she murmurs, giving her friend another comforting pat. "Although he doesn't sound like the type to admit that. I think most people around here remember what it was like to have stumbled upon the Nexus. Hopefully they'll cut him a little slack."

She's still not happy that Sherlock took out his fear and confusion on Ash, who was only trying to help, but the shapeshifter obviously cares for him, and she's willing to help her friend. At the very least, knowing that he's okay will give her some peace of mind.

The protective half-circle around her is sweet, and Adia smiles briefly. "So he's got a lot going on, then," she murmurs. Not just an abrasive attitude, but possibly some withdrawal symptoms, too. Great. Although when Ash mentions the fact that he can become lost in his own mental constructions, she pales noticeably. "But... he's human, yeah? Not... I mean, he's not..." She trails off and shakes her head, a little embarrassed. "Sorry, it's just... that's a skill some people on my island have. The Cylons. And I can do it now, too, but I've never gotten so lost in it that I couldn't tell reality from my imagination." She takes a deep breath. "They can be incredibly vivid, though... do you think that's why he didn't listen to you? Because he thought you were a hallucination?"

[delphicbooksandbaubles]

Aal nods softly in agreement. "Aye..very.." She murmurs some mite say it could be a mental survival instinct. "Fight or flight mode cha." She murmurs half wry. She hums and nods fervently at that assignment. "Not to strangers..no. " She inclines her head. Squeaky had only trusted a handful of folks with somethings..even less with his inner..mmh workings..Though he could be impatient. Stubborn..haughty..though..the last was typically a defence mechanism or pride in being right/figuring things out. Twas one of his gift's she was glad he used for the 'side of the Angels' as it were.

His Younger Alternate..however. "Aye, I hope so..most folks have little patience when it comes to him and vice versa. Ahem. Not jumping to conclusions is a skill everyone should learn but not many master." She murmurs with a little wry sigh. One might guess where she learned that from.

She hums and nods half muzzles the nearest part of her friend she can reach with her check. She murmurs softly. "When one eliminates the impossible.. whatever remains, however improbable, must be the truth." She half quotes. "aye..always." She murmurs in response to his business. Her lip twitches a little. "Busy like a Bee..he likes those." She murmurs her tone soft. "Well this one is yes..I didn't smell any other scents least wise.."So unless he could mask it..twas doubtful..Though one never knew with those that bore those features.

She smiles kindly. "Tis fine Adia..I like learning bout new things.." She gently reassures. "Oh do they? Interesting." She murmurs and rubs her chin..Seems she asked the right friend to help then. Not that she wouldn't try to recruit whoever else they could maybe find willing too..She tilts her head. "He would likely have said if he thought so..thin filter about such..But ah.." She pauses and clears her thaort. Her ears scanning for sounds.

As she glances at her paws. "Ahem..tis likely I came on too strong or something in some manner." Though she really tried not to..All she did was set out a chair some nibbles and a pillow and blanket..it had likely been her tone..yes..creepy wolf..bad..She slightly scuffs at her head in reprimaind.

[chiron_survivor]

It seems ironic that Sherlock would push away the one person in the Nexus inclined to help him the most, but nobody is at their best when they're lost and scared. "At least he won't be too trusting of the wrong person?" she offers hopefully. There's something to be said for being on the defensive in a new place and not naively accepting help and friendship from just anyone.

Adia smiles at the cheek rub, not minding the way Ash leans into her. "Is that something he says?" she asks in reference to the quote. "He's going to have a hard with that here. Sometimes I feel like nothing's impossible in the Nexus..."

Ash's reassurance relaxes her shoulders. "I don't mind talking about it," she replies. "I just... um, was remembering a similar situation of someone stuck in their mental projection... but you don't think that's why he didn't listen to you?" Her brows furrow while Ash explains, and then she sighs and resumes petting Ash's head, both in comfort and an attempt to prevent her from scuffing at herself again. "Oh, Ash... I'm sorry. I've done that before, too. I'm sure you didn't come on too strong. From the way you describe him, I'm not sure he would have taken offered help from anyone."

[delphicbooksandbaubles]

An irony not lost on oneself proclaimed bookworm that's for certain. Tis very hard to be so when someone is mad, or sad or stressed. That is a very..universal.. or multi one truth.
"Err..mayhaps..I mean..if he's.." She pauses trying to figure out the best words.."Deduction or logic reasoning is up to speed..Or if he doesn't follow..a mood.." She murmurs..Sometimes if he got an idea in his head it took quite a lot to disway him etc of it. Unless.."If there's evidence..to the fact." She murmurs..She just hope he wouldn' met someone who would 'short circuit' or overwhelms him so to speak. She didn't want him to break down in some manner after all.

"Aye..tis." She murmurs softly with a small fond smile and sighs."Aye, don't I know it..Least I'm been..to Wonderland..this one..would probably be doing various experiments if he could control a portal..least till he figured it all out.." She preferred..books and talking to people first and the like for her research. And proper safety and etc equipment before going to the next stage of development as it were.

She smiles softly. "Aye..I mean..he mite at some point if something..blows his mind so to speak.." She mutters wryly. "Aye..He ah turned tail and walked off rather quietly after he deduced..incorrectly..but not how the one I would normally..just the.." She swallows a lump thickly. " ahem getting away from the situation I don't like kind of walk."


She sighs, and glances up with sad puppy eyes, "It's not yer fault Aidas, " she shurgs a little and lowers her gaze again quietly sniffing the air a little never the less. "Well he was..asking questions..so..though I'd least try..Besides..he still a Holmes even if he's not my Squeaky." She murmurs soft and low. It didn't feel right leaving him alone neither..But perhaps..Her shoulders sag. Sometimes she wondered why she bothered..but she wouldn't and couldn't just give up either.