Josh stops in his tracks, slowly turns around so he can face Caspar. His hands are slipping into the pockets of his khakis to keep warm. The beanie on his head and heavy flannel shirt keep him comfortable otherwise, so he doesn't seem bothered even when his breath comes in little clouds while he listens to Caspar speak.
His face falls sightly, though it's decidedly more annoyed than Caspar probably expects after such a confession.
"Yeah, she told me. Also told me how you saved her life when she saw you again." He gives the Cylon a shrug of his shoulders. There are dark circles under his eyes. Josh reaches up with his left hand to touch at the webbed scar he has on his right shoulder underneath his clothes.
You're a monster!
"Look bro, I ain't the sort of person who can judge a guy on his past. I can tell you care about her an' you're dedicated to her now. You want me to be judgmental? Tell you you don't deserve her? I bet I can't do a millionth of the shit you already tell yourself every goddamn minute of every goddamned day." Josh knows the feeling all too well. Caspar isn't the only monster here in the Nexus. "I don't deserve her friendship either. But I got it, so only thing to be done is to live every day trying to earn it and keep it."
With winter coming, Josh doesn't want to think too hard about the Nightmare he walked through during Halloween. Everything gets worse when the nights grow long and the snow starts to fall.
"You're not the only one with a shitty past story to tell, so maybe just let me take you at face value like folks do to me and not throw rocks from my glass house, alright? You want a cuppa joe or what?"
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His face falls sightly, though it's decidedly more annoyed than Caspar probably expects after such a confession.
"Yeah, she told me. Also told me how you saved her life when she saw you again." He gives the Cylon a shrug of his shoulders. There are dark circles under his eyes. Josh reaches up with his left hand to touch at the webbed scar he has on his right shoulder underneath his clothes.
You're a monster!
"Look bro, I ain't the sort of person who can judge a guy on his past. I can tell you care about her an' you're dedicated to her now. You want me to be judgmental? Tell you you don't deserve her? I bet I can't do a millionth of the shit you already tell yourself every goddamn minute of every goddamned day." Josh knows the feeling all too well. Caspar isn't the only monster here in the Nexus. "I don't deserve her friendship either. But I got it, so only thing to be done is to live every day trying to earn it and keep it."
With winter coming, Josh doesn't want to think too hard about the Nightmare he walked through during Halloween. Everything gets worse when the nights grow long and the snow starts to fall.
"You're not the only one with a shitty past story to tell, so maybe just let me take you at face value like folks do to me and not throw rocks from my glass house, alright? You want a cuppa joe or what?"