Decadia Info

Mar. 8th, 2026 07:31 pm
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PLAYER INFORMATION

Name: Leshy
Pronouns: She/Her
Are you 18+? Yes
Contact: PM character journal

CHARACTER INFORMATION

Name: Maedhros
Age: 3000+ looks around his mid 20s
Species: Elf
Canon: The Silmarillion
Canon point: After his death at the end of the War of Wrath
Reference: Here
Items: A mithril sword and a mithril dagger.
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QUESTIONNAIRE

1. Is your character willing to have sex and able to give informed consent?
Yes.

2. What is the wish your character made? Why did they make it?
Maedhros wishes the oath he made to be undone. To no longer have his or his brothers souls and fates tied to a thing they never should have sworn in the first place. A thing that, since they ultimately were always doomed to fail, will see them condemned to the Everlasting Darkness for.
It’s the only thing he’s truly wanted for a very long time now and he’s well past the point of caring how he accomplishes it. He’s already lost everything else and he’ll be damned if he let’s an opportunity to salvage what’s left pass him by just because of prudishness.

3. How will your character initially react to Decadia's setting?
Seeing as elves are a bit puritanical by nature it will be a bit of a culture shock for him, there’ll also be a slight edge of indignance from him at seeing something so private being turned into a public spectacle.
He’ll also be kind of appalled he’s supposedly going to be observed the entire time and at the same time very curious about just how that even works since they don’t really have that kind of technology where he’s from.
But he is, at heart, a pragmatic man and he’s already broken far more serious social norms for far worse reasons. He also does not consider himself to be in any position to stand in judgment over how other people conduct themselves, not after what he’s done.
He’ll be somewhat uncomfortable about it all at first but he’ll loosen up in time.

4. What are you most interested in doing with your character in Decadia?
I kind of want to set him on a journey of self-discovery and self-acceptance through different kinds of CR, whether smutty or not.
always had to define himself by whatever role he needed to fill. His father’s oldest son, prince, king, warlord, brother, kinslayer… I want to give him a chance to develop into a fuller, more mentally healthy character away from all the obligations and responsibilities he had in his own world.
I’d also like to let him explore his sexuality a bit. He grew up in a very sexually conservative society where a lot of the things he’s actually into just isn’t done or, at least, aren’t done openly and needs to be kept secret.

5. What aspect of sex appeals to your character the most?
The intimacy.
Even if there is no love involved he much prefers there to at least be something more than just simple lust involved. Like friendship or even just mutual respect. Sex devoid of these things does not entirely appeal to him.
While he may not be as bound to the laws and customs of his people as most elves are he’s still influenced by them. While he does not believe sex should only be between married couples in a union meant to last forever he does not think it should be entirely frivolous and hedonistic either. He wants something more out of it than just simple physical release.

6. What kinks does your character have, known or unknown to them? Why do they have those particular kinks?
A lot of his kinks are things he’s not even aware of himself as, despite the fact he’s several thousands of years old, he has not had a lot of time or opportunity to really explore himself like that. Like the fact that he’d not mind a bit of objectification or exhibitionism with the right sort of person involved.
He does know that he likes to be treated a bit roughly, for there to be a bit of pain involved. He also, strangely enough, likes to be tied up but only when he truly trusts the one he’s with.
With others, though, he likes to be softer and gentler than how he wants others to handle him. He wants to praise and pamper and cater to their wants and wishes, he especially likes when they order him around as well. He actually has something of a fealty kink and wouldn’t mind roleplaying a vassal-lord type of relationship in bed.

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Mar. 8th, 2026 09:50 am
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[daily_prompt] a matter of instinct

Mar. 8th, 2026 10:00 am
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[Prompt: Poker chips and dice.]

[ after this ]

Adam Lydon is standing at his kitchen counter, flipping a poker chip between his fingers, lost in his mind. And that's how his wife Dana knows something is wrong. "Honey?" she asks, causing Adam's train of thought to derail as he glances up at her. "Are you okay?"

He knows he isn't, not quite. He's irritated about financial crimes getting completely snubbed in the media coverage of the Paulina Hanover case when he knows it was Janet Ford and Chase Bergen who broke the case open. Without them CID would possibly still be looking in the wrong direction. But he also spent the rest of his shift thinking about his conversation with Janet at her apartment. He'd been perfectly happy keeping that old story to himself and instead it had just come out of him. And now that it's out, it's not like he can put it back in.

"I told Janet I punched that guy," he tells Dana. "James Holland. I don't know why I told her. She said I was a good partner and I came up with that."

Dana is—was—the only other person who knows what happened. She had to when he came over for their date that night and she'd seen the damage to his hand. It had still been relatively early in their relationship, and he supposes he was lucky that she didn't ask too many questions and insisted on cleaning up the wounds before they went out. She still doesn't ask too many questions now, walking across the room to pull him into a hug. "What'd Janet say?" she asks.

"She thanked me for it," Adam replies. "I could tell it meant a lot to her. But I always figured we'd never talk about it. I mean, I'm not supposed to go around cold-cocking murder suspects."

"You weren't supposed to break up a murder either," Dana reminds him of the other time he severely broke protocol, the incident that got him suspended and nearly fired in San Diego. Adam prefers not to think about that either but he understands why she's bringing it up. He does what's morally right even if it's against the rule book. Especially if it's against the rule book. "You did what you felt was right," his wife continues. "You told me what that guy said about killing people. Anyone would feel the way you did."

"I know." Adam nods. The proof of that is in the fact that none of the half-dozen cops who saw him land that punch turned him in for it, or even said anything about it. "But it still wasn't my finest moment."

"Some people might disagree," Dana suggests. He looks over at her and can't help the small chuckle, because she might be right. He had crossed far over a line but he had proven he was loyal to the people he'd chosen as his family, even if it was only to himself and a handful of strangers. That's what matters most in this unit: the feeling that they all have each other, no matter what. Ultimately, Adam knows if the same choice presented itself today, he'd do it again.

He exhales and lets Dana go, shoving the poker chip into his pocket for the time being. "Anyway," he says, following her over to their couch. "Chase confronted a judge and the judge's associates decided to literally take a shot at him. He and Janet are fine, that's the important part, but I'm not happy that my partner has a bullet go past his head while I'm working in the office. We were having a good run on the not being shot thing."

That last line is obviously a joke as he settles in, but there's a ring of truth to it. They're a year removed from Nick Valencia catching a bullet in the shoulder after another car chase, which had prompted an in-house argument between Adam, Michael and Hunter Schilling. Yet before that they'd avoided gunfire altogether for years and it had been a relief. Adam feels like he should have done more even though he knows that's a fallacy. Dana can see that on his face and just reaches over to take his hand.

"You've been through bad days before," she reminds him. "And this one's over now."

"Yeah. And I don't know why I'm complaining, I wasn't really in it," he comments wryly, except for that brief period of time he spent checking on Chase and then immediately after the shooting. "You're complaining because you care about your friends," Dana tells him. "There's nothing wrong with that."

Adam doesn't mention the other thoughts he's had today. That he'd been reminded of Tayshia, unable to not think after he lectured Chase that he wouldn't have had to say anything like that to Tayshia. That it could have been him who got that midnight call and they might have avoided the whole mess. A couple of what-ifs that he knew were just side effects of still missing his best friend. They'd all gone out of his mind when he'd made his unexpected confession to Janet.

"Do you feel better now?" His wife asks him the most important question.

"Yeah." Adam can admit that. "I guess it feels better that she knows. That I'm not holding onto that anymore." Maybe now he can start to let that one impulsive moment finally go.

[900 words]

new equation, part 19

Mar. 6th, 2026 02:18 pm
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Chase Bergen dials a number that hasn't been on his speed-dial for nineteen months. He doesn't expect her to answer his call, but it still hurts when it rolls over to voicemail. "Rachel, it's me," he says awkwardly, staring at the wall. "I just wanted to check in and make sure you're doing all right. And to tell you that I really am glad you've been able to move on." He doesn't know what to say after that, so he just hangs up and turns to unlock his door.

It surprises him to see Janet standing on the stairs when he does. He stops with his keys in hand and laughs softly as she moves onto the landing. "You didn't have to walk me home," he tells her. The joke makes her chuckle softly. "I wanted to make sure you're okay," she says a little bashfully. "That there's nothing else you need. After all, I'm the one that got you into this."

"You're my boss. You can call whoever you want," Chase reminds her.

cut for length )

[1537 words]

[End.]

new equation, part 18

Mar. 4th, 2026 11:01 am
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It's no surprise that all eyes are on Janet and Chase when they walk back into the financial crimes bullpen. Their being there is a sign that the Hanover case is done—at least as far as they're concerned—but they've also hardly stopped working in over half a day. Getting coffee in Maryland and then a few minutes of trauma bonding doesn't qualify as a break. They're tired now that there's not something else to fill the space with, and there are plenty of emotions left scattered on the floor.

"I talked to Carter before I left, it's okay for us to make the notification," Michael tells Janet. "You two should go home."

"I don't even know what I'd do when I got there," Chase admits, throwing himself into the nearest chair.

cut for length )

[1262 words]

Permissions

Mar. 5th, 2026 08:34 am
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☆ PLAYER ☆

NAME: Leshy
CONTACT: PM character journal
ACTIVE TIMES/PACE: CET, which times and at what pace I'll be active might vary depending on work
BRACKETS/PROSE: No preference
OFFENSIVE SUBJECTS & TRIGGERS: None

☆ IN CHARACTER ☆

NAME: Maedhros
AGE: 3000+ looks to be in his mid 20s
SPECIES: Noldorin elf
GENDER: Male

HUGGING: Yes
KISSING: Yes
FLIRTING: Yes
ROMANCE: Yes
SEX: Yes
FIGHTING: Yes
INJURY: Yes
DEATH: Talk to me first
OFFENSIVE SUBJECTS & TRIGGERS: Torture, war, death, warcrimes

☆ OUT OF CHARACTER ☆

BACKTAGGING: Yes
THREADHOPPING: Yes
FOURTHWALLING: No
NOT INTERESTED IN: Nothing I can think of

☆ FIRST IMPRESSIONS ☆

VISUAL: A strikingly tall and beautiful man with coppery-red hair and faintly glowing silver eyes.
AURAL: Has a pleasant deep and smooth voice.
OLFACTORY: Smells faintly of smoke and fire.
DEMEANOUR: Calm, collected and moves with surprisingly light steps for such a tall man

☆ code by kimmiserate ☆ modified for use in decadia








Faves





• Oral (giving or recieving)

• Biting/Scratching

• Bruising

• Hairpulling

• Knife play

• Bondage

• Dominant/Submissive

• Anal (giving or recieving)

• Intercrural sex

• Clothed sex

• Formal clothing

• Uniform

• Romance / Affection

• Domestic servitude

• Discipline

• Handjobs / fingering

• Light pain






Yes





• Heavy pain

• Marking

• Spanking

• Waxplay

• Orgasm control

• Swallowing

• Facials

• Stripping / Disrobing

• Breath play

• Collar

• Exhibitionism




Maybe





• Whips

• Orgasm denial

• Cross-dressing

• Sensory deprivation




IC No





• Humiliation

• Rapeplay

• Wall/cross mounting

• Self-injury / Self-humiliation




OOC No





• Bathroom content

• Vore

• Watersports

• Gore







new equation, part 17

Mar. 2nd, 2026 10:48 am
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"Where do we go from here?" Michael asks the question they're all thinking, looking at the board that details the entire conspiracy that they've pieced together. It started with attempted murder and it ended with another one. But there aren't quite enough words to describe how fucked up everything else is around it.

"Well, with all the information we've just learned, we get to your favorite part, all the paperwork," Carter quips. "We have all their statements, the bank information, we pull the rest of the phone records and connect the dots. Moses has confirmed he was bribed by Stephens, Stephens' financials are going to show the payoffs, and those other two geniuses lawyered up after ten minutes but I bet you they're going to call the same lawyer. Who is probably the way this organization got to Stephens."

"We need to start going through his case files," Janet says.

cut for length )

[1456 words]

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