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nexus_crossings2021-12-02 09:59 pm
knightgallant) wrote in nexus_crossings2021-12-02 09:59 pm
Some (Or Too Many?) Thoughts
It's been some time since the knight has shown his face in the Plaza to ask a question. With all of the Fallen around and comfortably filling the roles of family members, teachers and friends within the Nexus, Galahad has never found himself at a loss for listening ears and good advice. His question today is one that any of his friends would address happily, he's sure, but he doesn't know if their ears are the best ones for it.
"Do you ever wonder if your time in this place has taken you too far from the person you used to be?" Oh, that sounds worse than he means it to, doesn't it? Time for a quick backpedal. "I don't regret the man I've become, but ... I don't fit into the world I came from anymore, either. People who were once dear friends, I now relate to differently because of how I've changed."
Many of the peoples in Albion would call that kind of psychic and moral shifting corruption, but it doesn't feel that way. A great deal of good has come from the connections he's made, and he hasn't ever been made to feel as though he's had to abandon the core of what feels right, and important to him in life. The application's just... shifted? It's a strange and confusing thing to try and wrap his mind around.
"How do you reconcile yourself with a world you no longer fit into the way you once did?"
"Do you ever wonder if your time in this place has taken you too far from the person you used to be?" Oh, that sounds worse than he means it to, doesn't it? Time for a quick backpedal. "I don't regret the man I've become, but ... I don't fit into the world I came from anymore, either. People who were once dear friends, I now relate to differently because of how I've changed."
Many of the peoples in Albion would call that kind of psychic and moral shifting corruption, but it doesn't feel that way. A great deal of good has come from the connections he's made, and he hasn't ever been made to feel as though he's had to abandon the core of what feels right, and important to him in life. The application's just... shifted? It's a strange and confusing thing to try and wrap his mind around.
"How do you reconcile yourself with a world you no longer fit into the way you once did?"
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"I've been thinking about that. We skeksis...we might not belong anywhere. We were banished from our home planet and we're a plague on our adopted one."
If the skeksis are defeated, skekSa has given some thought as to what will happen to the skeksis who choose to ally themselves with the rebel gelflings. Will they need to reunify with their urSkek counterparts, as skekGra told the Emperor all those years ago - the suggestion that got him tortured and outcast by the Court? Will they be able to stay on the planet, or have they interfered and caused too much damage already, so it would be for everyone's good that the urSkeks leave?
But if they were banished back home as her fuzzy memories suggested - and SaSan had blamed SoSu and his revolutionary tendencies for that, but she chose to follow him back in the day if only to leave the stifling rules of the urSkek home planet - they wouldn't be welcomed back on their homeworld either. That would leave them with nowhere to go.
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"There's no prize for fitting in, darling, only a gilded cage that acceptance molds to look like freedom." He's interested in this line of questioning because of how it mirrors ideas and questions people have about the Ministry vs opposition at home.
"I've never fit in at home but your question is important." Jack sits up to give the young man more consideration, turning his head so the good eye has a better view. "Were you a different person before or were you always this person without the freedom or courage to show it?"
Jack sighed out a trail of smoke while shrugging. "I don't know if the Nexus is the culprit. In Hunger City and my world, the government causes this alienation between fitting thier standards and being an individual without traveling anywhere. Luckily here there's no one watching your every move to exact punishment for straying from expected status quo in this place."
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"Never thought about it that way. Being in here it's sometimes a whole fucking lot better than being back home facing all the shit I have to deal with back with my parents. My old man being banged up for ten years now. That is a whole other shit heap to start with."
The punk jammed a hand in his leather pants pocket and frowned. The stranger didn't fit in back home anymore? Did Viktor? When he finally did go back home to see his mother what would she say? Viktor had a Viking boyfriend now which was bound to start trouble in his neighbourhood. Whatever. Those people could fuck off.
"I suppose I don't fit in to my world back home anymore like I used to. I've changed for the fucking better I hope. Vars is my man now and I don't let fuckers tell me what to do like it used to be. The world back home can suck cock because after the big interview Ziggy is holding live on air---the world will know who Viktor "The Devil" is big fucking time."
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She smiles warmly at the blonde young man. "Ya mean like growth of a sort?" She half queries to clarify half answer in return. She gives a half-bemused half-soft sighs. "A little all too well my friend..I mean I've been stuck in places through no choice of my own and had to adapt and deal with such. I suppose time and perhaps finding others to least talk about or bounce such things off of.. for starters." She murmurs warmly, as she caresses her son's blonde lock.
And murmurs cooingly at him. "Baaba." Little Gawainy babbles at her in return. Earning a giggle. "There's always those who will know the true you regardless or least try or want to. Seeing past ones own nose or getting out of one's head can be difficult." The latter she knew about a little too well.
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"The question you should be asking is, do you like who you are becoming?"